ADDITIONAL EXERCISE

As much as I desire a toned and muscular body and do exercise a great deal, I also realize that I am not doing all I can to achieve certain physical/athletic milestones. I can work on my abdominals a lot more and also spend additional time with free weights. I spend too much time with cardio equipment because of my fear of gaining weight. The cardio really tires me out and so I have less energy to burn on the free weights. I am so damned disciplined and yet I am hitting a wall in doing more. I often feel that my body is just too tired to complete any more exercise even if I break it down into different times of day. I also question if it is just the low energy or if its the realization that doing more is not a good thing – that it will once again place me in the category of obsession that I am working hard to break away from. Mental and emotional progress will inevitably lead to being less obsessive about my workout schedule. That is a frightening thought. Although, as I’ve mentioned, there are other exercise routines I can do, there is a limit to what I will endeavor to undertake in one day. I have improved from the past when I would squeeze one exercise routine after another all in one stretch of time.