So, I was talking to a group of gay males tonight and that conversation all the more made me realize how much my body issues are making me miss out on exploring my sexuality. I believe my body image really creates walls that keeps me apart from others. It must give out this vibe that I am unapproachable. Will the day come when I am okay enough with my body to actually embrace my sexuality or will it be too late? As the year continue to march forward I get so scared of truly observing how much I miss out. Granted there are aspects of my life that are going well but there is plenty that continues to warrant attention.

Sex should not be all encompassing however, i have not had any sexual relations in over three years. That is not normal - and it is directly related to my body image. I am ashamed to admit that and feeling overwhelmingly judged, but it is the truth and I can't deny it.

MBI